No one talks about how weird peace can feel when you’ve lived most of your life in chaos.
If you grew up in instability or spent years chasing stimulation through alcohol, drama, or distraction — peace doesn’t feel safe at first. It feels flat. Empty. Like something’s missing. But that’s just your nervous system recalibrating to a new normal.
In this episode, I get deeply personal about:
How chaos can feel safer than calm when it’s what you grew up with.
The addiction to intensity — and why “excitement” was really overstimulation.
The empty space that shows up after you stop running on adrenaline.
What it really means to build a new baseline of safety and self-trust.
How sobriety changes your relationship with peace, pleasure, and self-worth.
She also shares how childhood patterns, neurodivergence, and internalized shame can wire us to seek chaos — and how meditation, awareness, and emotional regulation can rewire that need.
Peace might feel boring at first, but it’s not emptiness — it’s alignment. It’s where your creativity, intuition, and magnetism finally have space to land.