Hiya friend, and welcome back! In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I share a deeply personal aha moment that landed this winter—one that cracked me wide open. What started as an attempt to record a podcast with Matt turned into a powerful reflection on trauma, intimacy, and the freeze response that shows up in so many of our most vulnerable moments.

I speak candidly about how, for years, I couldn’t fully access the realm of sensuality and sexual connection in our marriage—how my body would freeze, how my past held me hostage, and how Matt never made me feel wrong for that. I saw, in his fear of the camera, a mirror of my own journey through healing. This episode is a love letter to the quiet, persistent ways we can hold space for one another and a celebration of the patient, playful, pressure-free invitation Matt extended to me—back to aliveness, back to the land of the living.

This one’s tender, and it’s real. A story of grace, nervous system truths, and the kind of love that doesn’t push, but waits.