After his relationship with Emily ended, John moved to a new city & dove headfirst into Ayahuasca.

With the help of Liam, a modern shaman, John faced ego death, repressed anger, & a troubling question:

What was the nature of his godfather’s love for him growing up?

Chapters

(00:00) Intro clip

(02:54) What happened after your relationship with Emily ended?

(07:15) How did you come into your power?

(08:57) Can you take us through your ayahuasca experiences in as much detail as you can?

(14:20) Your relationship with ayahuasca sounds similar to your relationship with the powerful women in your life. Are there parallels there for you?

(18:25) John looks for evidence of abuse at the hands of his godfather.

(21:32) What it feels like to answer a difficult question on ayahuasca.

(23:17) What could happen if you don’t resolve questions,

(24:58) How John approaches the fear of difficult questions.

(26:33) What do you mean, “It’s never fully over?”

(29:13) Facing repressed anger.

(39:57) Why John thinks being experienced with psychedelics doesn’t mean wisdom.

(42:35) Why John has more anxiety with psychedelics now than when he started.

(45:46) How has this fear impacted your use of psychedelics?

Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.