The anniversary of losing a child is so much more than just a date.  It involves too much familiarity with everything about the season,  recognizing the before and after, and the vulnerability of life.    One minute our children were here, the next they were gone.   Often, as time goes on,  we learn to partially escape the excruciating daily pain with the changes of seasons and activities, but only until our season comes back around.   And it always does. This episode is about dealing with the upcoming 3rd anniversary of Sam's death.    My thoughts, feelings, and how I am trying to support myself through this time of year.