In this episode of ROCK BOTTOM, host Mayssa Chehata sits down with Kendra Austin: writer, model, and creator behind The Realest Oracle deck and The Eldest Daughter podcast.
Known for her wit, depth, and spiritual clarity, Kendra opens up about the journey that led her to rock bottom — and how burning her old life to the ground became the beginning of her rebirth.
Together, they explore Kendra’s path through emotional abuse, overachievement, and the perfectionism that masked deep pain. She shares how stillness, solitude, and plant medicine became portals to healing — and how she transformed her defensiveness into self-trust, her anger into art, and her chaos into clarity.
This intimate conversation dives into themes of nervous system regulation, emotional reprogramming, inner child healing, and reclaiming creative power. It’s a raw and revelatory story of how rock bottom can be the clean slate you never knew you needed and a reminder that transformation begins when we stop running from ourselves.
If you’ve ever felt stuck in survival mode or trapped in cycles of chaos, Kendra’s story will remind you that you are never broken, only becoming.
Show Notes:
(00:00) Introduction — What is Rock Bottom?
(02:00) Kendra’s childhood: chaos, old souls, and survival through imagination
(06:00) Growing up in emotional volatility and learning self-protection
(13:00) The “little lawyer” — how defensiveness becomes identity
(19:00) Learning that no one is coming to save you
(22:00) Kendra’s 2020 rock bottom: an abusive relationship and financial collapse
(31:00) The psychic metaphor — cleaning the house within
(34:00) The “scorched earth” chapter — anger as liberation
(43:00) Healing through psilocybin, journaling, meditation, and walking
(52:00) From victimhood to responsibility — taking ownership of your healing
(1:05:00) Creating The Realest Oracle deck and redefining spirituality
(1:14:00) Rewiring the nervous system and rebuilding self-trust
(1:25:00) Discipline without self-hate — the power of joyful choice
(1:31:00) Curiosity, evolution, and embracing the next rock bottom
Resources:
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Kendra Austin | Instagram
The Realest Oracle | Website
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Credits:
Created by Mayssa Chehata
Produced by Desta Wondirad and Wondir Studios
Production Support and Audio Engineering by Johnny Simon
Recorded in New York City by Wondir Studios
