Do you spend all week waiting for Friday evening to finally do your real work? Not the emails, not the meetings - the work that actually matters to you?
Beatrix does. She waits all week for what she calls "mythological time" - when she can finally shift away from everyone else's demands and into genuine creative work. The problem: The to-do list could now fill seven days a week. Operational tasks have crowded out everything else.
From filmmaker to farmer to self-shooting director, Beatrix kept wearing different uniforms trying to fit what others expected. Until an Orthodox priest in Siberia looked her in the eyes and asked: "What's happened to your soul?" That question led her from London to Cornwall to the Outer Hebrides, and finally to making work on her own terms.
After four years of institutional funding rejection, she launched a crowdfunder and raised completion funding in four weeks - from people who actually wanted to see her work. Now she's self-distributing her documentary and working on a project that integrates everything she's been told to keep separate.
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Keywords: Creative burnout, people pleasing, portfolio career, finding your voice, authenticity, gatekeepers, self-distribution, creative identity, work-life balance, multi-passionate
Lessons from her story:
1. Mythological Time vs. To-Do List Time - You need to protect time for your real work with stubbornness. Otherwise the demands will eat everything.
2. The Priest's Question - Sometimes a stranger sees what you've been ignoring - that you've drifted so far from yourself you don't even notice anymore.
3. "I Didn't See There Was Any Choice" - Sometimes the bravest thing is admitting you can't keep going the way you've been going.
4. Four Years of Rejection, Four Weeks of Success - Gatekeepers saying "no" doesn't mean your work isn't good. It might just mean you're asking the wrong people.
5. Tuning the Radio Dial - Finding your true work isn't about choosing one thing. It's about integrating all the parts of yourself you've been told to keep separate.
Key moments:
Mythological Time (03:44) - The difference between to-do list time and creative zone
"What's Happened to Your Soul?" (19:03) - The Orthodox priest's question in Siberia
The Thatched Cottage Decision (23:49) - Seeing a picture and deciding to leave London
Moving to the Hebrides (36:10) - Finding community, light, and quieter life
Four Years vs Four Weeks (44:58) - Institutional rejection then crowdfunding success
Tuning the Radio Dial (56:38) - Getting close to the clear signal
Quotable moments
"It's mythological time. It's not time of the here and now." - On the creative zone away from demands
"He looked me straight in the eyes and said, 'But what's happened to your soul?' And it went right through me." - The question that changed everything
"I didn't see there was any choice. I just didn't see there was an option to continue where I was." - On finding courage to change
"In four weeks I was able to raise completion funding for something I had singularly failed to raise anything for from conventional sources for four years." - Crowdfunding vs traditional funding
Follow Beatrix: Website: trixpixmedia.com Social: @trixpixmedia
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