If you’ve ever felt like a mess in academia—like you’re supposed to be confident, polished, and certain, but inside you’re wrestling with doubt, contradiction, and confusion—this one’s for you.

I talk about how I’ve spent years trying to build something real with the R3ciprocity Project. I’ve done it in public. I’ve done it without a roadmap. And I’ve done it while constantly second-guessing whether I’m “doing it right.”

Over time, I stopped trying to impress people. I stopped believing the cheap talk. I started watching what people actually do. And I gave myself permission to say, “Screw the world,” when I needed to.

This episode is about letting go of the pressure to have it all figured out—and learning that not knowing is not a weakness. It’s the start of becoming yourself. If you’re in the middle of it—confused, stuck, or feeling off-script—you’re not alone. This is what growth looks like.