What was your reason for coming to Jesus? Was it born out of earthly desires or a divine conviction to live a Holy life and make heaven?
And if indeed you are in Christ, are you in the right church? The bible says false apostles, prophets and teachers will come in the end time. And will deceive many into false doctrine.
Take a listen and find out if you are really in the right path. And if not you will find your way out of the false church.
Do not justify yourself, let the word of God do a forensic scan on your life and you will know the truth