You love. Absolutely, you do. You have grown, you have changed, you have evolved. And you do love. You feel love with your Unseen Friends and with your Inner Child and Inner Adolescent. You feel love outside in your illusion, in this physical realm. Oh yes, you do.

But, you see, you also feel the need to control, and that control robs you of the intensity, the depth, the beauty, and certainly the power of that love. And through the decades you've become so conditioned to that control that it is like the drone of a fan: It's only when it stops that you realize, "Oh, my gosh." It's only when the control is gone that you start feeling what love can really be, what power it really has. And when you do, you no longer have to settle just for the words, just for the poetry that for so long you've had to settle for. You actually experience that love far more deeply, far more richly than you ever have. Love really is all there is. It really is everything people say it is, and oh, it is so much more.

Of course you do love. But even so, the price of control is giving up love, banishing it, renouncing it to whatever degree.