Living life as an adult has been exhausting. Going through the motions, making sure everything is in line. Paying the bills, managing your social life and finding time to take care of yourself, is a tedious task. And sometimes you feel like you want to do more, or be more. That's all part of it, and it's all right, sometimes all we have to do is keep taking the day head on and work on what we can and build around it when we can. Be compassionate toward yourself, you're doing great sweetie.