This episode was hard for us. Listening back to the episode is even harder because we were naked figuratively not just with the audience, but with ourselves. We didn’t realize just how much damage our formative years of experience caused us. The rage and frustration and the ebb and flows of depression Rose experienced does have a genesis; one she was never aware of.

At times we tend to quickly dismiss the negative effects of our past on us, yes, we are resilient, we shake it off and move on with life. But there is a fragment of those experiences which steadily grows with us and leaves an imprint that may either make us better or be a constant impediment in our growth.

This is why it is essential for us to lead conscious lives. Knowing why you are angry all the time, or why one particular trait in people irritates you, or why you sabotage yourself; this puts you one step closer in the right direction to being whole again.

We can talk about depression and suicide as a mental illness, but it doesn’t operate in a vacuum. It is a series of events in our lives that leads us to this point. And what we need to do is consciously take a look back. And this is actually the hard part at times; admitting to yourself there is something wrong. And taking the step to take responsibility for what you have done and are doing and tracing it back to the source of the pain.

It is necessary to look at the source of the pain, address it and call it what it is and then free yourself of the bondage it causes. This podcast episode made Rose realize just how exhausted she was emotionally and psychologically. Exhaustion which made it hard to live and be motivated to do – anything!

Like you, Mary and Rose both realise we all have a lot of healing to do, we all do! We are products of our pasts with a lot of things from that past holding us back. It’s all about taking that first step and choosing to start the healing process. No matter how hard it may seem, the outcome will be a more fulfilled and rewarding life.

We hope this episode inspires and motivates you to be more deliberate in understanding yourself. And where the need is, to find the help you need to heal emotional, psychologically and mentally. We want to give a huge thank you to Anita Awuor for sharing her expertise as a clinical psychologist on this episode. 

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