In this solo episode, I’m getting real about something I’ve had to learn the hard way — you can’t fix anyone but yourself. I talk about going back to my ex, and how I fell into the cycle of trying to save someone who didn’t want to be saved.
If you’ve ever found yourself trying to fix a toxic partner, or you’ve been stuck in a push-and-pull relationship, this episode will hit close to home.
This is your sign to stop pouring into people who refuse to grow and start reinvesting that energy back into yourself diva. 💋
On this episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I sit down with Softest Chyl — the duo made up of Chyl and Softest Hard — and babes we get into everything. We talk about the real beef in the EDM scene (yes, there’s actual drama), their wild origin stories from Wall Street to festivals, and how they created their own sound blending speed house and hardstyle. We get honest about touring, internet drama, toxic vs. stable sex, dating as DJs, and the craziest things they’ve seen backstage. This one is chaotic, funny, and super real — just how we like it.
hi babies 💋 it’s Luci, and this week on kisses and chaos i’ve got one of my besties, Jvna, in the studio and we’re going ALL in. she’s in a brand new villain era (yes, the brows are shaved) and we’re talking about what inspired her dark, fashion-forward vibe, the double standards women face in EDM, and how being sexy in this scene can still get you judged.we also get messy about love — falling for red flags, attachment styles, jealousy, and why toxic sex vs. stable love hits so different. i even share some of my own chaos and how i relate to it.Jvna spills how she writes songs inspired by aphrodite and goddess mythology, why dating as a dj can be intimidating, and her hot take on why melodic bass is fadingand of course… we wrap it all up with a chaotic round of would you rather that you don’t want to miss.if you’re into raw girl talk, edm gossip, and witchy vibes — this one’s for you. 💌
Babes, do you ever feel behind in love? Same. In this solo episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I’m getting real about why starting over doesn’t mean you’re latem it just means you’re brave.
When I saw Taylor Swift get engaged at 35, it hit me: why am I crying at 28 thinking my love story is over? I’ve been engaged twice (wild, I know), went through heartbreak with “No Contact,” got swept up with “Maybe Mrs. Wright,” and now I’m single again—processing all the chaos, the broken promises, and the timelines that never happened.
I’m breaking it all down with:
✨ Taylor Swift’s engagement & why love has no timeline
✨ Psych facts like ambiguous loss & the social clock theory
✨ Saturn return chaos and the lessons it’s forcing us to learn
✨ Why starting over isn’t failure—it’s experience
If you’ve ever cried into Hot Cheetos after seeing an engagement post, this one’s for you. Your love story isn’t late, babe—it’s just still unfolding. 💔➡️💖
Bass, blood, marriage, and mayhem — welcome to the wild world of PhaseOne.
In this episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sit down with one of bass music’s most heavy producers to talk about everything the rave flyers don’t tell you. From emo metal kid roots and chihuahua drama to insane fan encounters (yes, there’s blood) and almost getting arrested overseas, PhaseOne opens up about the chaos of touring, the pressure of DJ life, and what it really means to balance love, music, and madness.
We also dive into his new album Terranova, how it became a story about creating a “new world,” and why you’ll never catch him having sex to dubstep.
It’s messy. It’s hilarious. It’s raw. And it’s the side of PhaseOne you’ve never heard before.
If you love EDM, bass music, or just want the unfiltered truth behind life on tour, this episode is pure chaos in the best way.
In this solo episode, I’m getting real with you about something we all feel but rarely admit: jealousy. Yeah… that gut-punch feeling when you're scrolling and it seems like everyone else is thriving, booking festivals, buying houses, getting married and you're just sitting there like, “What the fuck am I doing with my life?”I’ve been there. Honestly, I’m still there some days. I’m opening up about the truth behind my career setbacks, missing out on festival seasons, feeling overlooked, and how getting called a “has-been” nearly broke me. But I’ve also learned that jealousy isn’t something to shame .. it’s a mirror. And if you look close enough, it shows you exactly what you desire most.
In this episode, I talk about:
✨ How to reframe jealousy and stop comparing yourself
✨ The psychology behind why we feel behind
✨ How to protect your peace on social media
✨ My own story of rebuilding after being dropped and dismissedIf you’re in your “Why not me?” era… just know your “It’s finally my turn” era is on the way.Let’s talk about it. 💋
In this chaotic, unfiltered episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sits down with the stunning, savage, and soulful, Dani Thorne (formerly Com3t) to talk about everything from rebranding her entire identity to catching her ex mid-FaceTime with a fresh tattoo of another girl’s name 😮💨🖤
We dive into:
Dani’s transformation from rainbow-haired dubstep DJ to hard techno baddie
How a cheating ex with a secret girlfriend (and a tattoo to prove it) became her rock bottom
Growing up in Hollywood & navigating fame while staying authentic
Sexism in the EDM scene, toxic DJ boyfriends, and rebranding under her real name
Hot girl tour life, chaotic afterparties, and her hardest heartbreaks
This ep is funny, emotional, savage, and inspiring
the ultimate girl's guide to reinvention, red flags, and rising from the ashes 💄🕯️
If you've ever looked in the mirror and been like, “Wait... who even am I anymore?” same. This episode is for the girls, gays, and theys who've shapeshifted so many times to fit in, to be loved, to survive, that you don’t even recognize yourself anymore. I’ve been the alien, the ex-girlfriend, the popstar, the burnout and I’m finally finding my way back to who I really am. We’re talking identity crises, failed rebrands, masking as a neurodivergent person, and how exhausting it is to try and be what everyone else wants. If you're in the middle of a life reset, this one’s for you. It's chaotic, messy, honest, and kind of beautiful. 💋
What if you're not scared of love, you're just scared of love that’s actually safe? In today’s episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I spiral (again) but this time it’s because I met someone who’s actually healthy. Like… communicates, respects me, gives me butterflies and emotional stability?? I should be thrilled so why am I panicking? We dive deep into: Avoidant attachment and why healthy love can feel like danger. How trauma bonding messes with your brain chemistry. The truth about self-sabotage and emotional addiction. My toxic little moment where I unshared my location (ugh) and what it means to finally lay down your weapons and stop fighting love. Plus, I spill everything about “maybe Mrs. Wright”… and why this time, I don’t want to run. This one’s for the girlies who want love but don’t always know how to let it in. Come cry, laugh, and heal with me and don’t forget to follow, rate, and leave a review if this one hit home.
Babe... the evil eye is real 👁️. In this juicy & chaotic ep of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I’m spilling personal tea (fake friends, ex drama, wild rumors) AND diving deep into the psychology of evil eye energy why people send jealousy & hate, how it can block your blessings, and how to spiritually protect your peace. PLUS: why you should stop telling people your exciting news, and my fave rituals for blocking the evil eye & staying protected ✨. Stay hot, stay protected, stay unbothered!"
Welcome to Season 2 of Kisses and Chaos 💋! In this episode, I’m breaking down why I finally walked away from my toxic ex (for real this time), why peace isn’t boring (it’s actually sexy), and how I’m taking back my life for Hot Girl Single Summer. We’re talking toxic relationships, love bombing, trauma bonds, no contact, single life confidence, and how to stop wasting your pretty years on people who won’t change. If you’re ready to level up your standards, embrace single life, and stop going back to what hurts you this one’s for you. 💅✨
Should I take my ex back? I’ve been asking myself that question over and over—even after the lies, the yelling, the splits, the silence. And the worst part? I still wanted her.
In this episode, I talk about the confusing, chaotic space between what your heart wants and what your nervous system remembers. I get honest about what it's like when your ex finally starts trying, when they say the right things, when they feel like the version of them you always hoped they'd be... but you're still scared.
If you've ever missed someone who hurt you, felt tempted to go back because you're lonely, or wondered whether it's real change or just emotional survival—this one's for you.
💋 What I cover:
– Should you take your ex back?
– Why you still want them (even after everything)
– Emotional craving vs. actual connection
– When they finally try, but you're still scared
– The fear of being alone
– And how to tell if it’s love… or just relief
🎧 Listen to Kisses and Chaos on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your weekly dose of messy girl therapy.
Because sometimes wanting them isn’t enough—and knowing your worth means not going back just to stop the pain.
Are you stuck in a loop of “why does this always happen to me?” Baby… it might be victim mentality. In this spicy and soul-shaking episode, i’m getting real about how trauma, anxiety, and control issues keep us in a cycle of learned helplessness—and how the law of detachment can set you free. We’re talking signs you’re stuck in victim mode, how to rewire your brain, stop chasing people who don’t choose you, and finally glow the f*ck up. Plus: my personal story of how letting go led to my viral moment (yep, detachment really is that girl). It’s time to drop the pity party and reclaim your power.
I’ve had my fair share of fake friends — the ones who smile to your face but secretly gossip, compete with you, and disappear the second you start healing. In this episode, I’m sharing the full story of one of the most toxic friendship breakups I’ve ever had (yes, she trauma bonded with me and then teamed up with my ex… iconic). I talk about the red flags I ignored and why I’ll never settle for one-sided loyalty again. If you’ve been burned by a fake friend, felt drained after hanging out, or questioned your worth because of toxic friendship dynamics — this episode is your sign to protect your peace and let that shit go. It’s time to stop making excuses and start choosing real friends who actually clap when you win.
Ever felt like you're begging someone to love you the right way and no matter how clearly you explain your needs, they still make you feel like you're asking for too much? Yeah... same.
In this episode, I’m getting real about what it’s like to be deeply misunderstood in a relationship. I talk about trying again with my ex (no contact), giving her all of me — no walls, no resentment, just love — and still being blamed, gaslit, and made to feel like my love language (gifts 💌) was something to be ashamed of.
We get into the psychology behind love language shame, emotional gaslighting, splitting, and that moment when I was pushed so far I autistic screamed — because the emotional overload was just too much.
If you’ve ever had to over-explain your feelings, beg someone to show up for you, or felt like your softness was always “too much” for them to handle… this episode is going to hit.
🎧 Let’s talk:
Toxic love & relationship gaslighting
Why love languages aren’t shallow
Emotional invalidation & attachment trauma
How to stop begging and start choosing you
You weren’t too much.
You were just asking the wrong person.
Hi babe. This one’s for the days you feel like absolute shit.
We’re talking breakdowns, rock bottoms, the “I don’t want to be here anymore” kind of sadness and how I slowly, chaotically, rewired my brain and crawled out of the dark. I’m diving into my own story, the real psychology behind why we get stuck in depression spirals, and the tiny, unsexy-but-powerful habits that actually helped me get my life back.
This isn’t a glow up episode.
It’s survival. It’s soft. It’s science. And it’s hot mess healing energy.
Let’s fix our brains, one sad girl step at a time. 💋
This one is pure chaos. I found texts in her phone saying I wasn’t her type — but she wanted festival access. Then she got drunk at my music video (while Renee Rapp was there), screamed at me, and passed out. Oh, and she joined my live the other day. Also: she’s now dating a girl from our friend group.
I give you the full limerence breakdown: what it is, why I stayed, and why I finally had to walk away. Plus a messy birthday update, a surprise text from my no-contact ex (aka CEO), and reconnecting with my first-ever girlfriend — who we’re now calling Riverbend.
It’s giving toxic, nostalgic, and maybe a little hopeful.
Turning 28 used to terrify me—because I thought I’d be married by now, maybe a mom, definitely “figured out.” But plot twist: I’m not. And I’m finally okay with that. In this raw, glittery episode of Kisses and Chaos, I dive deep into why feeling “behind” in life is actually a lie, the psychology behind timeline anxiety, and how I went from multiple engagements and identity crises to fully owning my Forevermore era. We talk self-worth, social clocks, puffer jacket breakdowns, and why your 30s might be the best thing ever. ✨
You’re not late. You’re just becoming.
I swore it was one last time. Just one final hookup for closure… and now I’m more confused than ever. In this episode, we’re diving into toxic sex, love bombing vs. real change, and why “closure” with your ex is usually just chaos in disguise.
Rate the pod, tell your ex I hate them, and let’s suffer together, bestie 💋
She love bombed me, joined my Twitch, called me her dream girl… then disappeared like a cheap magic trick. In this ep, we’re roasting ghosters, reclaiming our hotness, and reminding ourselves: no response is a response, babe. And it screams “I’m a coward.” Let’s laugh, glow up, and move the fuck on. 💅💋