Reeling from her separation Jan plans a trip to South Africa but the press soon get word of her woes and pursue her for a story.  She accepts a job on The Big Breakfast "It was pure adrenalin that kept me going, as I'd had very little sleep for days" before jetting off.   "Not only did I miss my husband desperately, but there was no regular work to take my mind off the situation, and I was concerned about the future financially.  I knew the house would have to go.  It had always been seen as the largest part of my pension plan, to be sold when we retired and to capitalise on the asset.  On my own I couldn't afford to retain it.  I ran away again." After five weeks in Australia she returns to the UK and begins to rebuild her life.  A cruise to the Norwegian fjords with her son strengthens her resolve and she makes plans to move forward "I needed closure and initiated steps to divorce.  I needed that finality so that I wouldn't still be living in hope.  I had to face the future on my own, to get stronger and thank God for all the good things in my life."