uuuuuuuurgh, imposter syndrome. you… you jerk. some days you get moments where you know how hard you worked and of course, if you get praise for it, you know it’s well deserved and then you get those other days where you feel like, “is this me? really?” yes, darling. it is you. but then why tf do you feel like it isn’t??because imposter syndrome.listen to find out🗣✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comArticles referenced:What Is Imposter Syndrome? | Very Well Mindhttps://www.verywellmind.com/imposter-syndrome-and-social-anxiety-disorder-4156469Imposter Syndrome | Alexandra Owenshttps://www.psycom.net/imposter-syndromeImposter Syndrome: When You Feel Like A Fraud | Psychology Todayhttps://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-main-ingredient/202102/imposter-syndrome-when-you-feel-fraudStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

in today’s episode i’m exploring minimalism as taught by The Minimalists, Joshua Fields Millburn and Ryan Nicodemus, after watching their two documentaries. i am considering what minimalism is and who it’s really for. for a long time i thought of minimalism as a mere aesthetic with furniture i couldn’t afford, until i learned about the lifestyle side of it. i may have been bit… may have.listen to find out🗣✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comArticles referenced:What Is Consumer Culture? | Small Business - Chron.com. https://smallbusiness.chron.com/consumer-culture-57886.htmlWhat Is Minimalism? | The Minimalistshttps://www.theminimalists.com/minimalism/Start your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

it’s a brand new year. brand new season. brand new me? is “new year, new me” still a thing? what does that even mean and do people actually succeed in whatever goals they set for themselves that they need to achieve this year? if so, give us pointers :)✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiarticles referenced:https://wsbt.com/news/local/the-psychology-behind-the-new-year-new-me-mindset-explainedhttps://www.dailycal.org/2016/02/17/new-year-new-me-or-reality/https://www.successconsciousness.com/blog/goal-setting/new-year-beginnings-resolutions/https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/new-yearshttps://www.goskills.com/Soft-Skills/Resources/Top-10-new-years-resolutionsBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

i believe this to be the story of a thousand, if not millions of South African women who lived in the apartheid era, thus it’s somewhat more relatable than the stories of our icons. in this episode we talk about the telling of such stories when it comes to language and how our stories can mostly be understood if we tell them ourselves instead of going at it the Hollywood route.listen to find out some thoughts and commentary about this film🗣which film/series would you like me to talk about next?✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

the older you grow, the heavier certain terms you call someone become. ‘friend’ has such a heavy emphasis on it that you don’t know who to call friend, you don’t know who is your actual friend or you don’t know whose friend you are. i’m swapping that for organic relationships without labels.listen to find out🗣✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comCheck out Emily Smith’s Articlehttps://medium.com/age-of-empathy/normalize-friendships-ending-f478eb27b3c7Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

listening to this episode, i think i delved a little too deep in 365 Days/Dni. this will be more of a audio essay about this film that left me a little breathless to say the least. i apologise in advance. lawlz* kidding... but nonetheless, i hope you enjoy.listen to find out some thoughts and commentary about this film🗣which film/series would you like me to talk about next?✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei ilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

i took some time off after a hectic period of time that sucked the energy out of me and it was the best thing that i could have done for myself. let me walk you through the discoveries of introspection and how to get a step closer to accepting that it’s okay not to always be levelheaded and being okay with being human.listen to find out🗣✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

we need to talk about these romantic films and how after a century, they still attempt lie to us. not sure if it’s a generational thing, but i’m pretty sure the older we get, the less we buy into these things and we prefer realistic portrayals or dissections of relationships. The Day We Didn’t Meet is a fantasy that let’s us know from the get go and keeps reminding us that the romance between Sam and Alex is fantasy but soon things get real. listen to find out some thoughts and commentary about this film🗣which film/series would you like me to talk about next?📣check out South Pole JuwellsIG: southpolejuwellsjewelers and fashion enthusiasts to look out for. black and white is the way!✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei ilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

we’re taught from a young age that for us to get anything, we have to ask and we shall receive. “you can’t do things on your own...” when you ask and ask and no one budges, then surely you’re not gonna keep wasting your energy. it’s not giving up or giving in, it’s called knowing when to stop and move on. i’ve recently decided to take a huge step back to protect my peace.listen to find out🗣✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

i liked this film and there were some parts of it where it really came close to home, right? so during my research, watching behind the scenes, interviews and other people’s thoughts, the only adjective that stood out to me was ‘toxic’ but obviously from people’s opinions. naturally, this concerned me because again, something clicked and i was like okay… maybe my feelings about the authenticity of the relationship portrayed and the ‘argument’ portrayed was wrong. and i learned a heap!listen to find out🗣which film/series would you like me to talk about next?📣check out Success Unisex Beauty Salon & SpaIG: successunisexbeautysalonandspavisit this spa and salon in Pretoria for a good pampering if you need to get a breather and calm down. they’re open on mondays to saturday. ✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei ilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

i guess i am curious as to what fear and anxiety are. more so i would like to know at which point childhood fears go away and a person starts to be crippled by adulthood anxieties. there is just so much to deal with, we don’t get a break as adults, do we? ’spose the only thing we can do is learn to cope.listen to find out🗣📣check out Anxious Black Girl podcastIG: anxious_blackgirl i hope that she comes back but this podcaster had a lot to talk about when it came to mental health and it made me realise some things.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

i like to do alchemy when it comes to my hair. i know what to mix what and how much, but when it comes to reaching the subconscious... i’d rather not. Slot (South African series) sets its goal as to how far one can unlock the subconscious and if it can help to heal. it’s not a fun psychedelic experience but a thrilling and hair-raising one when watching this series. listen to find out some thoughts and commentary about this series🗣which film/series would you like me to talk about next?📣check out Ayanda MlangeniIG: ayanda_mlah not that she needs any introduction, but a shout out to this YouTuber and filmmaker who is a force to recon with. the future is female and everything about her screams this.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

i had such a wonderful time answering your questions. thank you for keeping me company on valentine’s day/galentine’s day/ballentine’s day. there’s so much i wanted to say but i’d rather not type and would like to tell you vocally. i’m dedicating this episode to the my first #qanda.listen to find out🗣📣check out Baby Jane ShopIG: babyjaneshop must be nice to be a toddler. spoiled rotten and you get to look stylish too. mommas, daddies add this to baby’s closet to give them more glam.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

Euphoria came at us with everything, especially in the first two episodes. but as with any series, the first episode is always too much and then you ease into the story. Euphoria has set the bar very high for modern teen dramas, in fact they keep doing this and with their special episodes, they keep gives us more. this friday (saturday morning), i discuss Parts 1 & 2 and how it’s been doing the most.first person who spots where i say “Rules and Jules” instead of “Rue and Jules” gets R50 airtime. this is what feb has come to - exhaustion.listen to find out🗣📣check out Wordography IG: info.wordography || ryan_mphorengthey transcribe words into photographs. if you’ve ever wanted to get the super model treatment, check them out. they also do various shoots, branding and videography now and then.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

so i’ve established that i am an empath, but what about me? if i can’t feel for myself and do anything about it without the gods of doubt talking me down or my introversion telling me to creep back into myself... where does that leave me? to speak or not to speak? that is the question. listen to find out🗣📣check out Nuri CandlesIG: nuricandles_zawith scented candles in the form of bodacious bootays, your self care Sundays can’t get any better. but wait... maybe they can with their salts and oils added to the love.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei ilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

#TheAudiencePerspective on FRIDAYS🎬it’s since been stated that Blood & Water is coming back this year 2021. i checked, filming started last year and i hope that with the cliffhanger that they left us with, they come back juicier. i paid Netflix to see this. this was the catalyst, lawlz* so let’s see how we felt and what we thought watching this. enjoy!which film/series would you like me to talk about next?Please comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.com📣Send us your small business or art to promote on in our shoutouts. DM us with:- what you do- a brief bio- where people can get hold of youBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE

as an empath, i’ve experienced that sometimes it’s uneasy to live in this world. it becomes uncomfortable to have to see certain things that one can’t change. the negativity, for one. but i’ve learned why i felt that way and how it’s connected to a deeper need within the self.listen to find out🗣📣let’s promote your business or your artIG: what’s your Instagram handle?FB: are you on Facebook?YT: anything on YouTube?Get a free shout, just dm us your details.✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

#TheAudiencePerspective on FRIDAYS🎬my sister dragged me into watching After and then bailed when i got sucked into watching After We Collided. #Hessa fans, please don’t come after me. i actually started following this series and i am still following it. for SOME reason. today we’re reviewing and doing commentary on After We Collided. enjoy!which film would you like me to talk about next?Please comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.com📣Send us your small business or art to promote on in our shoutouts. DM us with:- what you do- a brief bio- where people can get hold of youStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

We’re back at it! Season 2, seeds. And I couldn’t have made it without you. XxTo start this baby podcast’s second season, we talk to Metja M, a Youtuber, make-up artist and an influencer. This week we unpack what it has meant to venture on our different projects and we talk about our experiences as a fairly new influencer and a fairly new podcaster respectively. listen to find out🗣📣Check out Metja MIG: @miss_metjaFB: Metja MolomoYT: https://youtube.com/channel/UCZDGgi_NkAm5r43wETBmMeA✨Tuesdays - mental musings✨Fridays - film commentary/reviewsPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christarei ilisilchitchats.wordpress.comStart your own podcast for free with Buzzsprout and help support our show too. Let’s help each other grow!Buzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched!

Episode 10 and a half:A message for the end of the year. A message to remind us that we made it, but also a reminder that we take everything that we have learned into the future with us. It’s not long, but I just wanted to check in.I hope that your holidays are nothing short of beautiful and happy. May they continue to be great. To 2021! Happy New Year.Take care of yourselves, seeds!Love,Rein xxPlease comment, share, follow 👌🏽Let’s help each other grow, seeds🌻IG: @ilisil_saTwitter: @Christareiilisilchitchats.wordpress.comBuzzsprout - Let's get your podcast launched! Start for FREE