Hey everyone and welcome to episode 11 where I am still recording by my lonesome, due to another case of me deciding to record on a complete whim. I actually recorded a whole episode on this topic and then decided I hated it so much that I immediately rerecorded it, and while I don't know if I fully love this episode, at least I'm not having a breakdown the entire time I'm talking on this one. As I'm sure anyone but myself could have foreseen, this topic brought up some big feelings that made my initial recording a little more vulnerable and angry than I was ready for. On this (rerecorded) episode, I dredge up some old childhood trauma and some old childhood crushes, and talk about my experience being a lil queer baby in a not so queer friendly space. I touch on my desire to touch on Lindsay Lohan, and recount my numerous 90s era wire rim glasses wearing girl crushes. I try to define my own queer identity, and I talk myself into circles. Shout out to everyone who helped me get where I am today, shout out to baby Anna who I wish could have seen the possibilities a long time ago, and shout out to all you listeners who turn up and turn out for the podcast, love u all!