
This one has been a long time coming. For 15 years, I lived inside the prison of an eating disorder that is anorexia, bulimia, food addiction, and body dysmorphia. It was loud, lonely, and exhausting. I hid it behind smiles, success, and “healthy” habits…until I couldn’t anymore.
In this deeply personal episode, I open up about what recovery has really looked like, the pain, the progress, and the quiet miracles that changed everything. I share how I healed my relationship with food, with my body, and most importantly, with myself.
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Watch the full episode on YouTube here or head to https://www.youtube.com/@RealHeidiPowell.
Here are the key moments from the episode:
00:00 The Untold Battle I’ve Hidden for 15 Years
03:42 Living in the Grip of an Eating Disorder
07:15 The Physical Damage No One Talks About
13:35 What Body Dysmorphia Really Feels Like
17:02 Why Recovery Isn’t a Straight Line
24:49 Hiding My Disorder in Plain Sight
29:22 When Love Meets Self-Doubt
33:17 The Moment I Realized Shame Breeds Secrecy
36:41 Trading One Destructive Pattern for Another
41:02 Hurting Myself to Feel in Control
49:54 Redefining Self-Worth Beyond the Mirror
54:03 How Childhood Shapes Body Image
58:29 The Pressure to Be Perfect in a Public Life
1:02:45 Breaking Free from the Need to Be “Enough”
1:07:16 What True Healing Actually Looks Like
1:11:33 Learning to See My Body Through Love
1:16:04 The Role of Therapy, Faith, and Self-Work
1:20:12 Why Vulnerability Is the Gateway to Healing
1:24:36 Lessons I’ve Learned from Past Relationships
1:34:03 The Hard Truth About Long-Term Recovery
1:39:41 What I Want Every Woman Struggling to Know
1:44:25 How to Help Someone Who’s Struggling
1:49:37 Finding Meaning in My Story
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