"I'd really like to dance with the stories of my childhood sexually traumas without being treated like I'm fragile. I want the disrespectful, shitty, bullying. I want people to say the things no one would EVER say. I want to find any other places I might have unresolved bits leftover. I think I'll make it a game where I give out points for whatever I want and that clues us all into which directions to head."

I remember reading this post in a closed Facebook community for exploring triggers and feeling amazed that Carissa was actually inviting people to trigger her as much as they could. I felt inspired. This was a woman clearing out the remnants of trauma fragility from her being in a culture where the "accepted" reaction to trauma is either dumbfoundedness or "oh poor you, let's be careful and tiptoe around the subject".

In this interview, I explore Carissa's journey of having fully repressed her childhood sexual abuse to gradually recovering horrific layer after layer. We also explore talking about trauma without making oh-so-big-a-deal about it and bring experiment with bringing levity to a very dark subject. This conversation is not for the faint-hearted.

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Carissa Lorraine Cassiel has her own YouTube channel but mainly shares her life openly on Facebook. Finding herself alone and unguided in her process of unearthing and processing so much trauma, it became her dharma to help others in need of direction and internal map-making. She offers coaching but is also available via fb messenger if you'd like to ask advice, connect, or share what comes up for you watching this video. Don't be a stranger - we're all in this together. You can connect with her here – https://www.facebook.com/carissalorraine