Often in the journey of an #adultsurvivor of #childhoodsexualabuse towards Wholeness, they have to face the Rage that lives within their bodies for the gross violation of boundaries that they experienced as a child. Rage is an emotion that exists to represent past violation of boundaries that have not been fully addressed and alchemized.It's a trope in the adult survivor world that often (not always), it's easier to access this Rage against the person who was supposed to be taking care of you instead of the perpertrator. There's a felt sense of deep betrayal. It's almost as if the enraged part is screaming at our caretaker (parents, or otherwise)–"YOU HAD ONE FUCKING JOB. TO NOT LET ME BE RAPED. AND YOU FAILED MISERABLY AT IT.". Your experience may vary, of course. If there's one thing I've learnt in exploring these dark recesses of human society, it's that there is a broad spectrum of experiences that we go through as humans both in our abuse and in our healing journeys. And yet, this is a trope that I encounter time and again.The movie #Eileen, based on a novel by the same name from Ottessa Moshfegh, explores the tragedy of the caretaker. In this case, the mom of a boy, who let her husband continue raping him.I found this movie, and this scene in particular, to be a very healing piece of art. I hope that's your experience too. Whether it is or not, I hope to hear from you in the comments 🌱

This is an audio taken from the video uploaded on my YouTube channel – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaG8Gep2Yko

Copyright belongs to the movie owners. Scene borrowed under Fair Use for critical commentary.

#eileenmovie #annehathaway