In the previous episode, I talked about the panic I've experienced every time I've come close to or recovered a repressed memory of sexual abuse. In this episode, I share more about my direct experience with soothing my own panic attacks by holding different parts of myself with loving kindness every morning, along with regular self body oil massage rituals.

I don't get panic attacks anymore – unless I find myself watching a movie with a lot of jump scares – wild to think I was so numbed out that I used to love these before. Now the skillset I developed soothing my physical body during panic attacks helps me in my work as a Shibari Dom.