In this episode, I describe my own relationship to boredom and suicidal ideation and how the exploration of my repressed childhood sexual trauma has provided me with clarity into why I would constantly feel "bored" and engage in passive/mildly active suicidal ideation. I have not felt "bored" or experienced "suicidal ideation" over the past 6 months and I hope that this share will help you connect to a felt sense of preciousness of your own life and connect you to the magic that surrounds you every moment.

I cover–

• How "boredom" is intensity experienced through a layer of numbness
• How your Protector parts are the ones that want you to kill yourself
• Surrendering a desire for Death to Kali
• Looking at your astrological chart when you are feeling closer to suicidal ideation

Some links I referenced in the podcast–

My introduction to Internal Family Systems: https://vighneshrege.substack.com/p/minimizing-regret

Flaws in common arguments against Astrology: https://vighneshrege.substack.com/p/flaws-in-common-arguments-against-astrology