Dear Luijoe,
It’s been 21 years . 21 years today…
· without seeing your impish smile,
· without receiving wild flowers with a note “I love you so very much, mama”
· without your gentle reminder to pray
· without your lectures on parenting
· without your crazy jokes
· without pinching your handsome cheeks
These are all vibrant memories now tucked in my heart, which I stitched back together.
Oh yes. the tears still stream down my cheeks just like today because I miss you terribly. Love never died, even if you are gone from my embrace. 21 years ago, I felt the world swallowed me up. I thought I could not live with the unbearable, gut-wrenching pain in my heart. At times, I thought I went crazy. I barely survived. I had to find that courage to live because your two sisters and dad needed me. That difficult journey left me literally with a broken heart but not too broken, because why did God give me a second wind in life to make a difference in this mortal world?.....
