She became my teacher when I was done being undone.

Or rather when I realized with a holy f*ck ‘no anything but that’… that I wasn’t undone yet, not even at all.

My system could no longer assimilate anything that was not 100% true.

So she burned down everything in my world that wasn’t for me.

The Dark Feminine is Love. She teaches through dissolution, truth and Sacred Union.

You know you are on her path when there is no path and you are no longer afraid to accept how terrified you are of the descent into your darkness.

She invites you down when you are done pretending to be ok when you are not ok, the repulsion, the terror, the prove it pick me energy, the rushing, the twisting and contorting to get fed and pleased. The rage, the grief, oh the horror.

She strips you down to your original skin and slowly goes to work on your soul lattice.

Without any effort at all.

I went down hard and I went down fast. Grasping for context, flailing and falling, completely out of my mind, fighting tooth and nail to hold onto control as I made the drop.

And, in slow-as-molasses time, accepted her invitation to the hold down on her ocean floor.

Where the Real work began.

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In this podcast episode I clean up my intention for starting the Hannah Rose Podcast in the first place. I invite you into the power of the Feminine with this first episode as an introduction into The Dark Feminine Series sharing my own journey through the portal of power. I share my experience of what it felt like to be in the wildly disorienting mindf*ck of the dismantling, the body slam of patterning I uncovered, the complete loss of income in the name if what was true, and the rupturing of relationships, of home, of community, habit, substances, coping mechanisms, of anything that required me to contort myself or abandon to stay in its keep. I offer my experience shifting my inner polarity and how that completely changed my attraction to men and led me deeper into sacred union within myself and to receive my partner.

The Dark Feminine series is trickling through this week leading up to the winter solstice (of course she is!) and celebratory Xmas return of the Son (Sun) light and worshipping the Divine Masculine in right relationship. I love the timing and as I have been recording the series over the last few months, I get it now. Why she waited.

The Dark Feminine Series

Episode #1: Making The Drop

Listen on the Hannah Rose Podcast on Spotify and Apple Podcasts

Links:

My work https://linktr.ee/apapachadora

Link to my teacher of the dark feminine lineage who inspired this series Steffie Funk