On today's episode I share some thoughts on the struggle with feeling the push and pull towards and away from the programmed version of myself; the one that thinks it needs to be moving forward on schedule, smoothly (i.e. perfectly) and consistently producing all the life things at all times. Which of course is in direct opposition to the actual human being version of myself which often goes off schedule, is rough and rocky and feels inconsistent most days in it's energy, inspiration or even expectations.

Undeniably this can bring up a lot of shame. You may find yourself having a full court press ego interrogation, laying in bed close to tears, just attempting to give yourself permission to come to a full resting stop. But no matter what, we have to remember that ease only ever comes from slowing down, dropping into honesty, finding gentleness and practicing kindness for the truth of what is -- not what should be. And the truth is we can expect to be human, and that is beautiful thing, no matter what state of "production" we're in.

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