What happens when your first sexual experience isn’t a choice, but a violation that you can’t even remember? How do you confront the pain you’ve spent a lifetime trying to silence? The scars we can’t see often have the deepest impact on who we are. In this profoundly personal episode of Fiercely Unfiltered, host Kelly Renee breaks a 34-year silence. For the first time, she shares her experience of sexual assault at 14 years old. Kelly recounts a night spent at a friend’s house, where she drank and blacked out, only to wake up to a traumatic discovery: blood on her sheets and the painful realization of what had happened, though she has no memory of it. Kelly opens up about the crushing weight of silence and shame, explaining how she buried the experience, believing that if she never spoke of it, it couldn’t hurt her. She reflects on how this coping mechanism of "pushing things down" became a pattern that affected many aspects of her life, including her relationships and sense of self-worth. Kelly connects her story to the sobering statistics of unreported sexual assault and bravely explores the lingering questions of blame, accountability, and the life-altering "what-ifs," such as the possibility of a forced pregnancy. This episode is about pulling the roots of buried trauma. Kelly ends with a message of healing, reminding us that silence doesn’t erase your story; it only keeps the pain locked inside. Key Takeaways Trauma you don't process will show up in other areas of your life. You can know something wasn't your fault, but still carry the shame. The majority of sexual assaults are committed by someone the victim knows and go unreported. Pushing pain down is not coping; it's a delayed explosion. Truth is the foundation of healing. You can't heal what you won't acknowledge. Your voice is your power. Speaking your truth is what sets you free. In This Episode [00:01] Introduction [00:40] The night that changed everything: 1991 at age 14 [02:11] Waking up confused, afraid, and covered in blood [04:21] Carrying the weight of silence and shame [05:33] Statistics on assault and why so few report it [06:50] The cost of silence and unhealed trauma [07:53] How pro-choice conversations connect to autonomy [10:12] Revisiting “first time” memories and flashbacks [12:04] How silence shaped coping patterns for decades [13:20] Unlearning suppression and choosing healing [14:43] Kelly’s reflection: pulling every root, finding peace [15:30] Closing message: Your story is your power Notable Quotes   [07:43] “Silence is where pain grows, where you live in shame. I shouldn't be ashamed of something that happened to me.” [01:04] “The stuff you try to bury, it doesn't disappear. It actually grows roots. And today I'm going to fucking pull those roots up.” [13:00] “Silence doesn't make it disappear. It won't erase your story.” Resources and Links Fiercely Unfiltered Fiercely Unfiltered with Kelly Renee Kelly Renee Instagram Facebook Website