You say to yourself, “I won’t do it again.” You tell Allah you won’t do it again, and then you do it again.
You feel so ashamed that sometimes you even ask yourself, “How do I face Allah in salah when I keep doing this?”
And then Shaytan whispers to you, “Just don’t pray.”
Today, I talked about my life as an imperfect repenter, like every other human, striving in jihad al-nafs (striving against our lower selves).