I spent my first 40 years in the cultish Evangelical world, picking up many layers of cPTSD from family, religion and marriage. I’m rebuilding a new life as a single mom of five kids who has stopped homeschooling. Single moms usually work, but in 2020 Long Covid gave me brain injuries and nervous system damage, which means I lost the entry level jobs I attempted to work. This is a glimpse of my journey in leaving Evangelical Land and its magical, mystical promises. I’ve learned the hard way that God doesn’t pay your loans or stop domestic violence even if you make a covenant with Him.