In this episode, some of what Ruthie and Chetna talk about:

• Ruthie’s soul’s work and dharma to welcome and love all the parts of us, including those that have been shamed or rejected

• Ruthie’s story of being hit by an ambulance, being hospitalized for a month and getting a wire implanted in her spinal cord infusion

• Growing up as a sweet Southern girl and her doing everything she had to do for belonging and love

• Her being disassociated and numbing with food and screens, as a way to stay on the planet early on

• Doctors putting Ruthie on the highest level of narcotics to cope with pain that they later discovered to be a broken wire piercing her brainstem 

• Living in a bed for 7 years in debilitating pain and addiction until her husband left and her father passed away

• Her gratitude for a breakdown that happened and got her out of bed to start living again in 2013

• A period of time when Ruthie was wanting to die due the debilitating pain she was always living with

• Her work now is inviting and welcoming pain when it visits, affirming with others that “it’s not the end of your story”, that transformation and healing is possible

• Grieving who she thought she was and what she thought her life would be like, including having many children, which is not part of her current reality

• The practice of “being with”, with whatever pain or pleasure comes up, all of it getting to be here without being denied, then it transmutes and transforms, and love gets to drive

• Choosing love, forgetting and then remembering, and choosing love again

• Ruthie saying “the pain is visiting me” versus “I am in pain”, to acknowledge that the pain comes and goes

• The parable of the 2nd arrow: the first arrow being the circumstances and realities of our lives, and the 2nd arrow being the shame, resistance and judgment of the first arrow

• Ruthie sharing Dr. Hilary McBride and her framework of 7 core emotions (anger, disgust, excitement, desire/sexual excitement, joy, fear, sadness)

• The “inhibitory emotions” we create (shame, anxiety and guilt) to keep us from feeling any “bad” core emotions, that are “check- engine lights” giving us information about what needs to be felt

• Then we numb our inhibitory emotions with additions to avoid feeling those

• Social anxiety coming up as a “check-engine light” for Chetna saying that she’s trying to be like others or match the energy of others

• Noticing how we feel certain emotions in our bodies through noticing its sensations, temperature, textures, colors and the emotions underneath the sensations

• Being in our bodies allows us to be here now, connected to the oneness of everything around us, how embodiment will change the world because you can’t hate another when you’re in love and in your body

• Ruthie going beyond the pain story into her excitement for remembering and reclaiming our divinity because we exist!

• Her obsession with studying sacred sexuality, reclaiming pleasure, and challenging purity culture and patriarchy!

• Her passion about money consciousness and getting more money in conscious women’s hands!

• Giving money and energy of blessing, welcoming and stewardship 

• Ruthie sharing her learning with Kate Northrup about how lack stories and welcoming money is about regulating the nervous system

• Honoring and blessing the small things to show the universe that she’s capable of honoring and blessing the bigger things that could transform the world

Find:

• Ruthie’s website: ruthielindsey.com

• Ruthie on IG @ruthielindsey

• Chetna on IG @mosaiceye and the podcast @creationforliberation 

• The podcast to watch on youtube

Other offerings:

• Upcoming Events: Creative Somatic Alchemy, SA Femme Disruptors Reflection Group, and Boundaries for Peace Support Group (mosaiceyeunfolding.com/communityevents)

• Work 1:1 with Chetna for self-trust, creative reclamation and divine aligning (chetnamehta.co/sessions)