ood morning kingdom

i need to change my mindset about the city i live in but i just want to move so bad  

ive been struggling with loneliness feeling othered and justtwanting a community 

i wish i felt more mentaly stable, physically safe and understood 

i wish it was easier for me to leave my comfort zone and find friends 

i wish i could do fun things more often 

i wish i asked people for help more at the end of the day i just need some help right now 

its not the city its you

at the end of the day maybe it is me every time i want to leave somewhere i blame it on the place but maybe it is just me

sometimes i just wish i could go to a psych ward

im also so sick of being in pain like i feel like i am constantly just getting sick and getting over it or being sad and getting out of it or binnge eating and restricting im just overwhelmed

i also feel like i make all the wrong choices like why dud i get into a car accident and then order a seafood boil on uber eats like thats not normal 

im loving summer house and star struck on hob max

i got hit when i was listening to linsey hubbard talk about her break up on my way to go eat my panera bagel on a podcast called not skinny but not fat like wtf when it rains it pours 

projectile vomiting is like a constant in my life and i HATE throwing up here are some more stories of me throwing up